This is whyI hate watching or encountering others who are really skilled. It makes me insanely envious. There are so many things I've tried and nothing works. I'm past my mid 30's, at the very least, I should have things figured out already. Unfortunately,... See More »
I 'spose change really is inevitableI'm just kinda lost, I guess. I'm not sure I can even comprehend what happened. I used to be so bitter and full of anger. All of that feels like it has subsided and been replaced with sadness. Instead of wanting to rant on about how negatively I view... See More »
Another day wasted........story of my life. I wanna be able to travel. I wanna be able to go out. Being poor sucks. Having no friends sucks. I never go anywhere or do anything. It feels like I'm the only one who's always just stuck. Stuck doing nothing. Stuck being a... See More »
I can't stop........I don't understand what's happening. Every time I tell myself I can't spend money, I do it anyway. It's no small amount either (for me). It's hundreds and thousands. After I realize how much I've spent, I get increasingly stressed out. I never... See More »
I don't even know........how to express myself. I'm not mad, I don't feel more stressed than normal. I'm just.... sad. I woke up feeling sad and just.... I don't know, defeated I guess? I'm not even sure what's going on. This isn't like my normal posts where I hate... See More »
I don't think I'll ever........understand what it is about myself that makes me so repulsive. I rack my brain about it all the time. Every.... single.... day. It never stops. The only conclusion I can ever draw is that.... I'm not enough. I'm never enough. I never have been.
