People who commit suicide become ghosts.
Apparently ghost lives are even worse than human lives

I truly understand.

I sold everything and lived in a van. You need a whole different life.

If you’re indigo?

You have to find your way out of your reality and build a new one. And you definitely can. That’s what this being alive affords us. The allure of the abyss will always be there but it’s not something to fear. Darkness will be on your side. Light on the other.

Ik, the human condition is the shits...life is work and effort. Nothing is given. Maybe read some philosophy books or find.a good listener who understands...don't give up hope.

[quote] I just wish I knew that there was somewhere for sure after all this and that it's better than this.[/quote]

There is.