The Life I Want
There's the life I want; the life of success and achievement, the life of on-time assignment completion and honesty.
And then there's the life I have; the life of failure and forgetfulness, the life of late and missed assignments and excuses.
I want to escape this constant cycle but no matter what I try I fall back into the familiarity of failure. I just want to escape and get out of this place, start over and have the job and home I want, but at this rate I'll end up a failure to myself and those around me.
Video games, porn, YouTube videos, worthless posts here that blend into oblivion - everything within me makes me not quit but I continue to fail. Maybe, for once, I really should just give up. Maybe I should just drop out, prove them right, and just start over and move on. I have one and a half semesters left but I'm so tired of seeing myself repeat my mistakes and yet return to them like a dog to its vomit.
And then there's the life I have; the life of failure and forgetfulness, the life of late and missed assignments and excuses.
I want to escape this constant cycle but no matter what I try I fall back into the familiarity of failure. I just want to escape and get out of this place, start over and have the job and home I want, but at this rate I'll end up a failure to myself and those around me.
Video games, porn, YouTube videos, worthless posts here that blend into oblivion - everything within me makes me not quit but I continue to fail. Maybe, for once, I really should just give up. Maybe I should just drop out, prove them right, and just start over and move on. I have one and a half semesters left but I'm so tired of seeing myself repeat my mistakes and yet return to them like a dog to its vomit.
26-30, M
