The Life I Want

There's the life I want; the life of success and achievement, the life of on-time assignment completion and honesty.

And then there's the life I have; the life of failure and forgetfulness, the life of late and missed assignments and excuses.

I want to escape this constant cycle but no matter what I try I fall back into the familiarity of failure. I just want to escape and get out of this place, start over and have the job and home I want, but at this rate I'll end up a failure to myself and those around me.

Video games, porn, YouTube videos, worthless posts here that blend into oblivion - everything within me makes me not quit but I continue to fail. Maybe, for once, I really should just give up. Maybe I should just drop out, prove them right, and just start over and move on. I have one and a half semesters left but I'm so tired of seeing myself repeat my mistakes and yet return to them like a dog to its vomit.

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Misanthropic · 26-30, M

Everything you want is within you, the physical World is a crutch.. money is usually a desire to compensate for emptiness, sex to compensate for love and attention and so on.

The only meaningful thing this World can provide us are connections with other people and that is easy.

I have been where you are.

Jungleman · M

you are only a failure if you give up, if you haven't given up then you aren't a failure.

fakable

you have to finish your studies and then fuck it all up.

sspec

Efforts will get You the needful.

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