Feeling Low Today

I'm still gonna work on homework so I feel like I've accomplished something today that brings me closer to my goals in life than before, but oh boy do I feel the weight of the things I've done and the people I've hurt today. And I don't mean this in a "I'm a mysterious badass mofo" kind of way because I'm most definitely not. I mean this earnestly about the ways I've lied to, used, mistreated and manipulated people before. Eventually I'm gonna have to answer to someone or something for the things I've said and done, and on days like these I find that I loathe myself and question whether or not it's even worth it to go for my dreams anymore. I feel unworthy of the gifts and blessings that God has given me and guilty for the many people I've hurt and let down.