Do you ever feel that life is passing you by?

If some bits of it pass me by, I feel very fortunate. However, I do understand your issues.

You bought that big RV and you thought you would be out travelling the country, having massive amounts of fun and adventure, but your home life situation almost always says, "No." Now you feel trapped in the house where you don't want to be. It's a sad situation.

I still say that you should hop into that RV by yourself and GO. Hire companions so that you and she won't be alone and go out to the far west, and Alaska, and have a party!