You are on the the perfect track to have a more fulfilling life. If nothing else you have become enlightened to one central truth. But part of that truth is that everyone whose life you engage, matters. Your life itself matters! You influence others without knowing it. All you have to do is want to, and the be honest and true to you! Don’t worry who that is or what that is. To better understand—Just think about those strangers (and family) that influence you.

"always seems to be meaningless". Maybe and I can't say that for a moment or tow I haven't felt that way, but then I get a call or a text and it's my son or daughter. Then I know that that the small self I am has meaning.

We all, you included, matter. Yes, we are but a speck in the grand scheme of thing, but to someone somewhere, we matter. That for me is enough.

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Life is what we make of it.