I think this is it now.

It's like running into a brick wall. A dead end. Yet, it's also like seeing a vastness or unreachable depth. In the grand scheme of things I am small. Just another number on the census to tell a government, "Hey, I exist!" But at the same time nobody cares except you. What have I done in this life that actually matters? In a twisted sense, I know it could be an unforseen domino effect that nobody would understand. The possibilities of doing something and going on from here are endless...but it always seems to be meaningless.