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I don't know what this is that I'm feeling.

Like I'm pretending to be a proper human.

I'm a robot and there's a pilot in the back of my head that's trying to interact with people in a normal way.

Because I am an imitation, every thing I do barely passes as being legit.

It's a really difficult feeling to describe.
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Look to your past to shine some light on stuff.

Also, scrutinize your current life through every lens.

I will just add that
self compassion, is a tall order, for most of us.

I suspect that you know what the answer is but, often the answers are not easy.
SW-User
You are human. You might just be feeling depressed. Take care of yourself.
caPnAhab · 26-30, M
@SW-User maybe. I've felt this way as far back as middle school.

But thank you
SW-User
@caPnAhab None of us are perfect so you can’t be hard on yourself. Try to live life the fullest. You’ve got everything going for you and you’re young. You’re welcome 😇👍🏼🌈🌟🌈
ButterRobot · 51-55, M
Id suggest you do a personality test...one of the Myer briggs ones. It'll help you understand yourself a bit better and also illustrate that you are actually (perhaps) just a different type of nornal (meaning not the majority).
caPnAhab · 26-30, M
@ButterRobot thank you for the suggestion. I've not heard of this test before
SW-User
Sounds rough, sorry to hear it. Do you give yourself things to look forward to, and do you often socialise?
caPnAhab · 26-30, M
@SW-User I've got a few things to look forward to. I don't like socializing.

Well, I do sometimes but it's tiring
SW-User
@caPnAhab I hear you. We’re social creatures; interacting with others is beneficial for our mental well being. It’s finding the motivation that’s often the challenge, especially when you’re already feeling down.

Perhaps find a few people who share your interests and arrange hangouts every so often. I find socialising whilst doing something I enjoy (say music, board games, movies) is much more motivating.
You are not like others your age. That is a good thing. Does it worry you? It shouldn't. Are you on a spectrum, perhaps? You are different for sure.
caPnAhab · 26-30, M
@PoetryNEmotion I'm not necessarily worried but I find myself an outcast sometimes. Which can be fine, I like my lonesome but it's difficult to relate to people.

I only have a professional diagnosis for adhd. Being a part of any other spectrum I have no diagnosis for.
SW-User
Sounds like you are disassociating
SW-User
weird I was thinking abt this just an hr ago, derealisation vibes lol
I see the light...you are the light!
WhateverWorks · 36-40
Sounds like disassociation
ExtremeNext · 36-40
I always thought you were a bit weird 😏
caPnAhab · 26-30, M
@ExtremeNext ^^^ as you can see that I am obviously a robot ^^^
ExtremeNext · 36-40
@caPnAhab of course 🙄
PaleandPolluted · 36-40, F
Well if you are talking about smalltalk it is a bit robotic, thats why I hate it. I like interacting online because you can say you're true feelings. I don't give a f*ck where someone's going on holiday or what they did at the weekend.
caPnAhab · 26-30, M
@PaleandPollutedyeah I don't care for small talk either. But I care about the things bigger than small talk.
@caPnAhab me too but it gets me in trouble bringing stuff up so I work on diplomacy and kindness psychology
SledgeHammer · 46-50, M
Stop smoking that shit!
caPnAhab · 26-30, M
@SledgeHammer but I'm completely sober
LordShadowfire · 46-50, M
I believe that's referred to as a homunculus. The little guy, I mean.
Lilnonames · F
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