I am tired of this life and depression. I don't know what to do. Please help?

Six months ago I would have to you to drop your whole life and go camping, hitchhiking, freestyle rock climbing or some such thing. Those kind of things worked well for me when I was your age. Sadly with the world on lockdown things like that are out. Try simple things like pushups, digging a hole in the back yard, chop some wood. Pushing yourself physically is you best bet.

Have you looked into trans cranial magnetic stimulation? It is being used in treatment refractory depression with I believe a 97 percent success rate.