CD'ers, What was it like when you tried to quit CDing?
People that don't CD will never understand a CD'er. Crossdressing is a lot of being an alcoholic.
I know everyone has tried quitting CDing specially us older ones. We all started when it wasn't accepted like it is now.
For me it became like a craving, just like a food craving. I see women walking around or see things in stores. I would be wanting that.
Then that craving was becoming a want. You know what I mean. I was like damn I want to wear that, I want to feel that soft fabrics, I want to smell nice again
Then before I knew it. I see something pretty I either stolen it or I bought it. I don't remember, I just knew right then and there. CDing was going be part of life till the day I die.
I came to terms with my CDing early on. Trust me I still have my battles and questions like. Why do I, What's the fucks wrong with me questions, and the every so nagging self doubting and put myself down. But lets end this here, before I start another chapter of my life nobody cares about.
I know everyone has tried quitting CDing specially us older ones. We all started when it wasn't accepted like it is now.
For me it became like a craving, just like a food craving. I see women walking around or see things in stores. I would be wanting that.
Then that craving was becoming a want. You know what I mean. I was like damn I want to wear that, I want to feel that soft fabrics, I want to smell nice again
Then before I knew it. I see something pretty I either stolen it or I bought it. I don't remember, I just knew right then and there. CDing was going be part of life till the day I die.
I came to terms with my CDing early on. Trust me I still have my battles and questions like. Why do I, What's the fucks wrong with me questions, and the every so nagging self doubting and put myself down. But lets end this here, before I start another chapter of my life nobody cares about.
56-60, F
