I Am A Crossdresser And I Like Me

I am finding it very hard to figure out where I fit in the grand scheme of the gender spectrum. I would say that I more fluid and don't hide myself that much no matter how I am dressed and present myself. I have tried to join communities online and in my area but it seems i somehow always say the wrong thing about myself that seems to make these community members pull away from me. The closest thing I can relate with right now seems to be a crossdresser, but even those communities pull away when i don't want to talk about my underwear every time I meet them. I'm just at the point where I'm going to do my own thing and associate with none. I prefer to walk a fine line of chaos and unpredictability and that is where I am comfortable. I'm getting tired of apologizing and finding new ways to explain who I am. Perhaps they can open their eyes and see for themselves who I am.

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silkydrawers

I share your frustration. I have tried many avenues myself and I never seem to fit in.
I have tried gay bars where they accept crossdressers but found myself being attacked by gay men who were hell bent on putting their hands up my skirt.
I have gone to support group meetings and found them very boring. I enjoyed being out in a pretty dress but just found myself sitting in the back corner feeling like a wall flower.
I have met other crossdressers and found their only interest was to get into my panties.
It just would be nice to have a close friend with whom you could share a lot of common interests and crossdressing being only one of them and not the major focus of the friendship.

NitaCD

I whole heartily agree! Although its more than likely that the chance of this happening is slim to none.