I think I’m gay, but I’m married to a man…

I’ve always had an inkling I was attracted to women but have only ever been with men. I have kissed a lot of girls but only ever had relationships with guys. I’ve been with my husband for almost 10 years, married almost 5 and I did try and come out to him as bi a few years ago when it got too much for me to hide. However, he took it really, really bad and it didn’t go down well at all so I said I wasn’t and sort of brushed it over…
I turn 30 soon and I don’t know if it’s age, but I just feel so so strongly about women. I’ve even said to myself that if my relationship was to fail, I would date women. I also really don’t want a child and I don’t know if it’s because I’m not in the right relationship/with the right gender. I don’t know how to feel, I just know that my feelings for the opposite sex are just getting stronger every day and are not going away.

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Scribbles · 36-40, F

I had a year of much confusion in my life. I wanted and needed to figure out what was being true to myself, and what I wanted. I've always known that I was attracted to both genders. How I wanted to deal with that was always an open-ended question and depended on circumstances. I dated a woman once. I've dated men. I ended up falling in love and marrying a man. And that ended up being right for me. I probably could have just as easily found the love of my life in a different gender. But I wouldn't give up my partner or being faithful to him for anything. It became more about the person then the gender of a person to me...but that's me.

Good luck on your journey of figuring things out. And Good luck to your husband as well.