Had a weird dream.
I had a weird dream last night, I don't remember all the details, and since it was a dream some part of it will be weird and make no sense, but here it is.
I was taken to a newly married young couples house to help with the chores, not like a maid or servent, more like a I am visiting this country and I need a place to stay. I am not too young to be considered as their kid, nor am I old enough to be considered the same age as them. They both had different working schedules. Most of the time when she is home he is working, and when he is home she is working. I remember my first day moving in, the wife was tall and beautiful and he was in a good shape and handsome, but both seemed kinda cold and distant, I assumed that would change once we get to know each other. I stayed there for a while, and nothing much change, I did what I had to and they worked a lot so we didn't get to bond that much, but with time a gat a little bit easier to talk to them, usually to ask for something about the house, city or country.
I also remember feeling attracted to the husband at some point, he had that nice, quiet guy thing, but I ignored the feeling because it was just a silly crush, plus he was married and even tho he wasn't, guys usually don't like me and he is obviously straight, I would have just made a mess if I had said anything.
I don't remember how, or why, but one day, while his wife was out working, we were in the bathroom and he suddenly started getting ready to take his bath, he was always quiet so I didn't think much of him not asking me to leave, but it would have been inappropriate to not leave so I stood up and was about to leave when he put his hand out to me. I looked at the hand, then look at him. Scared and confused I walked slowly towards him and took his hand, he then pulled me into the shower. I put my other hand out to break my fall as the pulled me in, and it landed on his shoulder. Then I gently walk in to the bathroom with him and... We just showered together, I thought the whole thing was weird at first, but maybe it's ok here? Maybe it part of the culture here and maybe I shouldn't do anything to make it weird? But isn't it already weird. He is not talking about it, so.. I guess I shouldn't. It happened a few more times after that, until it just became a thing, us showering together at night, when his wife is out working. There has never been any touching, the shower is quit big so he had his space and I had mine, that's how that went..
Until one day, just out of the blue I felt a hand grab me slowly by my waist, it was so unexpected that it scared me and I must have startled a little bit. He didn't say anything just pulled close until our bodies were glued to each other... Then stuff happened and I just kinda allowed myself to go through with it. Until it gat to a point where I think we both realized this was wrong and just stopped. The next day he took me to a friend's house, and said I had to stay there for a few days. I think he told his friend what happened because his friend didn't seem too happy with me, I could just tell. Before he left I tried talking to him. I told not to blame himself and with a sad look on his face, head down, barely looking at me he said "I caused it", before turning his back to leave. A few days later, I went back and I could cut the tension in that house with a knife, something definitely went down... I could sometimes hear screaming from my room, mostly from her. I was upset I allowed this to happen and felt like all I have been to this couple was just a huge problem. One night they invited thier friends over for dinner, friends that were married to each other, the same friend that own the place he left me a few days after.. "The incident".
Anyway, while they had dinner I was at the bathroom taking my bath. I could hear them talking, but not loud enough to understand anything really, then I heard one of the friend, the guy, shout out to me saying "HEY! CAN I COME IN WITH YOU!? IS IT MY TURN NOW!? HAHAHA" All this from the dinner table.. I was a joke to them.. I felt ashemd but felt like I deserved it after what I did. After my bath I went to my room and could still hear him laughing, he was the only one. At this point I was basically hiding and avoiding as much as possible both of them. And that how the owl thing ended.
I was taken to a newly married young couples house to help with the chores, not like a maid or servent, more like a I am visiting this country and I need a place to stay. I am not too young to be considered as their kid, nor am I old enough to be considered the same age as them. They both had different working schedules. Most of the time when she is home he is working, and when he is home she is working. I remember my first day moving in, the wife was tall and beautiful and he was in a good shape and handsome, but both seemed kinda cold and distant, I assumed that would change once we get to know each other. I stayed there for a while, and nothing much change, I did what I had to and they worked a lot so we didn't get to bond that much, but with time a gat a little bit easier to talk to them, usually to ask for something about the house, city or country.
I also remember feeling attracted to the husband at some point, he had that nice, quiet guy thing, but I ignored the feeling because it was just a silly crush, plus he was married and even tho he wasn't, guys usually don't like me and he is obviously straight, I would have just made a mess if I had said anything.
I don't remember how, or why, but one day, while his wife was out working, we were in the bathroom and he suddenly started getting ready to take his bath, he was always quiet so I didn't think much of him not asking me to leave, but it would have been inappropriate to not leave so I stood up and was about to leave when he put his hand out to me. I looked at the hand, then look at him. Scared and confused I walked slowly towards him and took his hand, he then pulled me into the shower. I put my other hand out to break my fall as the pulled me in, and it landed on his shoulder. Then I gently walk in to the bathroom with him and... We just showered together, I thought the whole thing was weird at first, but maybe it's ok here? Maybe it part of the culture here and maybe I shouldn't do anything to make it weird? But isn't it already weird. He is not talking about it, so.. I guess I shouldn't. It happened a few more times after that, until it just became a thing, us showering together at night, when his wife is out working. There has never been any touching, the shower is quit big so he had his space and I had mine, that's how that went..
Until one day, just out of the blue I felt a hand grab me slowly by my waist, it was so unexpected that it scared me and I must have startled a little bit. He didn't say anything just pulled close until our bodies were glued to each other... Then stuff happened and I just kinda allowed myself to go through with it. Until it gat to a point where I think we both realized this was wrong and just stopped. The next day he took me to a friend's house, and said I had to stay there for a few days. I think he told his friend what happened because his friend didn't seem too happy with me, I could just tell. Before he left I tried talking to him. I told not to blame himself and with a sad look on his face, head down, barely looking at me he said "I caused it", before turning his back to leave. A few days later, I went back and I could cut the tension in that house with a knife, something definitely went down... I could sometimes hear screaming from my room, mostly from her. I was upset I allowed this to happen and felt like all I have been to this couple was just a huge problem. One night they invited thier friends over for dinner, friends that were married to each other, the same friend that own the place he left me a few days after.. "The incident".
Anyway, while they had dinner I was at the bathroom taking my bath. I could hear them talking, but not loud enough to understand anything really, then I heard one of the friend, the guy, shout out to me saying "HEY! CAN I COME IN WITH YOU!? IS IT MY TURN NOW!? HAHAHA" All this from the dinner table.. I was a joke to them.. I felt ashemd but felt like I deserved it after what I did. After my bath I went to my room and could still hear him laughing, he was the only one. At this point I was basically hiding and avoiding as much as possible both of them. And that how the owl thing ended.
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