Would you rather keep your family and friends, living a lie. Or risk loosing them to live how your heart tells you it wants

Are you sure you're going to lose them? You say "risk", they may surprise you but the bottom line is it's your life and you are allowed to live it how you wish to, no ifs or buts. You'll be too conflicted and unhappy otherwise in my opinion if you don't. Good luck though with whatever you decide to do but remember it is YOUR life not theirs and I hope if they love you they will have understanding and give you support not rejection. Hugs.