Please stop asking for titles

I have been there brother. 26 years it took me to find my girlfriend. I had to work on myself alot while feeling the most bone crushing loneliness that broke me more than a few times. I had to get in shape, work on my conversation skills, get my money right in order to pay for a nice date. The problem is it was too late for me by then, all the women my age had alot of experience and baggage from their past relationships. I ended up with a woman who was incredibly jealous and thought i was going to cheat on her, her exes had all treated her badly and it was up to me to pick up the pieces. By the time i had earned her trust she was no longer maintaining her appearance anymore, she piled on weight and shamed me for not being attracted. I still love her very much but i am miserable because i no longer want to have sex with her, it has become a chore and i can't help but wonder if she even cares about how i feel. I wish i didn't fall in love with her, i want to think that i was better off alone but i know deep down it isn't true. I'm sorry for how you feel but dont make the same mistake as me, because i was you once upon a time.