I have come full circle ⭕️ with confidence

When I was a kid I didn’t have much confidence. In college I felt so much more confidence. Between my last two terms I had a huge mania episode with bipolar disorder and went to a psych ward. Before that I felt like I could get through anything. Any job I needed I could get. Anyone date I wanted I could enjoy and then later she would be my girlfriend. Now positivity about the future feels like risking a trip to a psych ward with the flip of a coin.