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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

I came from such a dark, lonely place. I had spent so much of my life there, I couldn't see past there and really thought that my entire life would be spent there. I wanted out so badly, I lost interest in just about everything.
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How are you now?
mljenkins · 51-55, F
@wilderflower I am in a much better place. I admitted to myself that my life was unmanageable, it was the first step I took in the healing process. I am still on my road to recovery and I am not quite the person I want to be yet but I damn sure am not the person I used to be, that is for sure.

Due to circumstances beyond my control nor my understanding, I ended up in a very dark place. Yes, I lived through it and yes I have moved on. What happened no longer controls me nor drives my behavior. I am becoming the person I want to be, willing to make changes, open minded to doing things differently and honest with myself about the reality of living life on life's terms. It is such a beautiful thing when I don't try to force life to happen, it's a relief to know I don't have to nor was I ever supposed to.

I know happiness, love and peace...I have serenity. My life is filled with wonderful people that I choose to be around. I think in a much more positive light.

The journey has not been an easy one, I had to go down a few different roads, try a few different things, but I finally found a way that worked for me. I want to share my story with others, for one, hopefully something I have done can help someone else along in their own journey, and 2, to let everyone know that it can and does happen, sometimes we escape the darkness and get to live in the light and that is a beautiful thing.

If anyone wants to know more about my journey just let me know, I would love to share that with you...
@mljenkins Your story sounds a lot like mine. I struggle with anger issues but I’m so much better than I was.
Take care of yourself. You’re worth it. 🤗
mljenkins · 51-55, F
@wilderflower Thank you and I wish well on your journey
@mljenkins Thanks. You too.