Thoughts, ramblings, struggles, same ol’ same ol’
Heartbroken and angry lately. Never mind the details because they don’t actually matter.
I’m reflecting on Ephesians 6:12.
These people who’ve hurt me and screw me over aren’t my enemies even if it really feels like it lately.
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood…”
How someone else failed a test of character, their chance to choose to be honorable over opportunistic doesn’t excuse my failings in dealing with the situation; my lack of faith.
“I will behave myself wisely in a perfect way. Oh, when will you come? I will walk within my house with a perfect heart.” This is what I should strive for.
People can and might take everything from me, and it’s for me to focus on the Lord and trust that I’ll be cared for.
“…I have learned in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.” My life verse, which I’ve forgotten lately.
If I end up in debt again or worse, I’m going to be okay.
As I continue to learn forgiveness, I expect more obstacles. I overcome them if I can stop seeing these people as enemies and try instead to see the reality of the situation; what’s happening spiritually. It’s not personal on their part; they’re just afraid that they won’t be taken care of, and that they’re alone in their struggles.
(If I have to continue to live, then I have to participate in this spiritual walk and battle. My heart can’t be the way it was for too long.)
I’m reflecting on Ephesians 6:12.
These people who’ve hurt me and screw me over aren’t my enemies even if it really feels like it lately.
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood…”
How someone else failed a test of character, their chance to choose to be honorable over opportunistic doesn’t excuse my failings in dealing with the situation; my lack of faith.
“I will behave myself wisely in a perfect way. Oh, when will you come? I will walk within my house with a perfect heart.” This is what I should strive for.
People can and might take everything from me, and it’s for me to focus on the Lord and trust that I’ll be cared for.
“…I have learned in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.” My life verse, which I’ve forgotten lately.
If I end up in debt again or worse, I’m going to be okay.
As I continue to learn forgiveness, I expect more obstacles. I overcome them if I can stop seeing these people as enemies and try instead to see the reality of the situation; what’s happening spiritually. It’s not personal on their part; they’re just afraid that they won’t be taken care of, and that they’re alone in their struggles.
(If I have to continue to live, then I have to participate in this spiritual walk and battle. My heart can’t be the way it was for too long.)
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