growing old

i have always feared being old
not in control of my mind or body
cancer and various illness,
ive seen cancer kill many ive loved.
ive seen drugs,alcohol, failed marriage,
hard times and hard days in old age.


with you, i imagine us old together,
hand in hand, watching our children get married,
have kids,
watch those kids grow.
live our days together,
until the day came one of us pass
if it was you
i couldn’t live without you
and id join you once again in the afterlife
peacefully.