Since my grandma passed, I’ve been struggling with the concept of aging.
I’ll preface by saying I’m an anorexic, so I’m very body conscious since I was 11 due to this. I do not believe it’s the idea that I’m going to be “ugly” when I get old that is the issue.
My issue is the lack of control that I have when it comes to aging. I don’t like when my body doesn’t look or react in the way I want it to.
I hate looking in the mirror because I’m starting to not recognize my face. I have always been unable to determine what I look like, so this is not a new concept.
I feel like it went from the normal amount of self hate and control issues and ramped up to 1000%. The first thing I do when I meet people now is try and guess their weight and age 😭
I know I am not old at 26, but I can’t help but feel like an 80 year old.
Has anyone experienced this? How did you overcome it?
My issue is the lack of control that I have when it comes to aging. I don’t like when my body doesn’t look or react in the way I want it to.
I hate looking in the mirror because I’m starting to not recognize my face. I have always been unable to determine what I look like, so this is not a new concept.
I feel like it went from the normal amount of self hate and control issues and ramped up to 1000%. The first thing I do when I meet people now is try and guess their weight and age 😭
I know I am not old at 26, but I can’t help but feel like an 80 year old.
Has anyone experienced this? How did you overcome it?
