TW: Calorie counting/food/health reflections

I have posted before about how I typically don't eat more than 1000 calories in a day. Now there are of course days when I go over, like if we dine at a restaurant or it's a special occasion and we order pizza, or eat a dessert, etc. Easy to go over 1000 in those cases. But for me that's very rare.

Today was a typical day for me calorie wise. I had a total of 848. I ate 2 slices of sourdough bread with a small amount of butter for breakfast. Had an Alani energy drink (sugar free, 10 calories). Lunch was not the healthiest, but I had forgotten to bring mine from home so I purchased some items from the kiosk at work. A small bag of Garden Salsa Sun Chips, 2 slices of Colby Jack cheese with 6 small crackers, and a string cheese stick. Dinner: 2 cups of my homemade plant based chicken and vegetable soup. But then I had a second bowl, so total 4 cups. Lol

I didn't work out today because I'm fkng exhausted from dealing with idiots all day and waking up before dawn. 🫩

I've made some massive changes in my life just in the last couple of months- and I feel like it's time to make another one. I have anemia and a blood disorder that makes my body struggle to produce blood. It causes permanent exhaustion, fatigue, muscle weakness, and fainting, and as I age I think it's getting worse. I've adhered to an ovo-lacto pescetarian diet for over 20 years, but at my current health and age, I think it's time to reintroduce poultry into my diet. Poultry provides B vitamins, essential protein, and heme iron, which is more easily absorbed into the blood than plant based irons. I will start small of course, gradually adding it to my diet until my gut biome is adjusted.

Ethically it's very hard for me to consume animals, but I also am about to embark on a dedicated fitness journey, a new educational experience, and a new job. I want to feel normal. I want stamina and energy again. I suppose this calls for sacrificing my ethics for my physical needs.