I’m not really sure how to put this into words, but I felt like I needed to share. I recently came back to work after being on burnout leave, and I was actually really proud of myself for taking that step. It felt like things were slowly getting better. But today has been really hard. I had to leave my dog at the veterinarian hospital, and since then it feels like everything is kind of crashing down at once. Emotions I thought I had under control suddenly feel very close to the surface again. What’s confusing is that I don’t fully understand what I’m feeling. It’s like a mix of sadness, stress, and something heavier that I can’t quite name. I can feel my mental health getting more fragile, and that scares me a bit. I don’t really have a specific question—I guess I just needed to say this somewhere and not keep it all inside.
It’s like a mix of sadness, stress, and something heavier that I can’t quite name
What you are feeling is normal. The feeling that you can't quite name is called being "fed up" or "en avoir marre" . Basically, the older we become, the less conneries we can tolerate.
We work our 4sses off just to survive, and with few extra rewards. We learn that most of what we are told was lies.
Plus, life is very thankless. We give up so much in return for so little.
I think the best we can so is to minimize our burdens and to stop giving a sh*t as much.
If you were to ask the doggie, he would say, "Chepa, mais puis-je avoir un hamburger?"
@HoochieTheClown merci pour la reponse . Ue pense que je deviens paranoïaque… j’imagine le pire . Pour le moment tout se que je voudrais c’est mon petit chien :(
@Julien He will be back with you real soon. It is easy to think the worst in certain situations but in my experience, the worst typically happens when we are confident that all will be fine.
But yeah, one negative emotion can cause a flood of others to arrive.
That's exactly how I felt ten years ago now. I burned myself at work. Tried desperately to keep afloat. I guess that only three things saved me: my new boss who wanted my out, my friends at church who always let me rant (after the traditional question: what did that boss of yours do this week), and a few friends more, some who really stayed with me. Go and meet up with friends, have a drink and walk a few miles in the countryside or wherever
@FreddieUK One doesn't really recovery. I'm working on a job change. One of my own design and wanting. Do you know that my boss actually sent me openings for jobs at other departments and communities? Luckily as a librarian of twenty years already then I had tenure
@val70 thank you for your kind reply . Is just emergency and crises are Much harder to deal with than it use to be … back in a days I would have gone for a drink ( actually more like 15 ) but I am 11 years sober
@Julien Exactly. I'm now looking after my elderly dad. Working part-time. It's like I can't sleep nor relax any more. Plus several other relationship things making it always like walking on eggshells. And then there's a more than two decade love that I still hunger for. Many a people who have gone crazy for less, I guess. Even my last counsellor walked away. No, if it's still something now and then, it will be still manageable. I tried to put things into boxes at first, but that goes after a decade alright. Just take real breaks from it all, and try to aim for something brighter
I would like to recommend EMDR therapy for you. It helps with depression, and anxiety...and it does sound as though you might need a little extra help right now to go back to work.
One of the great things about SW is that you can offload without worrying about the wrong sort of intrusive follow-up. You are in control of what happens here more than in rl. I was sorry to read this and hope that you quickly find the healthy life balance you need and that your doggy companion is restored to you in full health.
