This is truly hard letting go

I realize I've posted a lot on my dad's hospice and his new cancer diagnosis. But tonight it was beyond painstaking Bec he can barely breathe from pneumonia on top of it. Day after day the congestion gets worse.
He's on morphine but they had to increase the dose.
Yesterday and today is the first time he's not able to talk. Yesterday just was asleep six hours straight and today could only mumble things weakly, could barely understand. I'm pretty sure he said Love you.
I saw a tear at the corner of his closed eyes an hour later. He's moaning occasionally, and the cancer is very rapid.
I'd give anything to stop his pain.
I'm sending you calming vibes Dad, to sleep tonight the best you can, and I love you. Thank you 🫂💜

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Diotrephes · 70-79, M

This is why medical assisted suicide should be easily available in every State. You don't get a gold medal for suffering when you're dying.

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@Diotrephes It's agonizing. It was just heartbreaking seeing him moan and mumble, he couldn't even speak. Then sleep all day through phlegm filled breathing. I hope my words to him and holding his hand even gave a fraction comfort.

Diotrephes · 70-79, M

@Baybreeze

It's agonizing.

I've been through lots of such events with my own family members, the last one being my wife of 39 years. When it's my time I hope it takes less than a minute overall.

As I've said before, all relationships will end, either in death or in divorce (includes friendships as well as marriages). The best thing survivors can do is to live their lives in ways that will have made their loved ones proud. Honor your father by living a good and decent life.

As it says in Sirach (CEB) =
Sirach 7:34 = "Walk beside those who weep, and mourn with those who mourn."

Sirach 22:12 = "Mourn for the dead for seven days, but mourn for the foolish and the ungodly all the days of their lives."

Sirach 38:16 = "On mourning
My child, let your tears flow for the dead; as one who is suffering terribly, give voice to your sorrow. Lay out their bodies in accordance with their wishes, and don’t neglect their burial."

Sirach 38:17 = "Let your crying be bitter and express your sorrow fervently, and make your mourning worthy of them. Mourn for one day or two so that there can be no criticism, and then be comforted from your grief."

I'm still mourning for my wife after 2 3/4 years. Maybe I will join her soon.