This is truly hard letting go

I realize I've posted a lot on my dad's hospice and his new cancer diagnosis. But tonight it was beyond painstaking Bec he can barely breathe from pneumonia on top of it. Day after day the congestion gets worse.
He's on morphine but they had to increase the dose.
Yesterday and today is the first time he's not able to talk. Yesterday just was asleep six hours straight and today could only mumble things weakly, could barely understand. I'm pretty sure he said Love you.
I saw a tear at the corner of his closed eyes an hour later. He's moaning occasionally, and the cancer is very rapid.
I'd give anything to stop his pain.
I'm sending you calming vibes Dad, to sleep tonight the best you can, and I love you. Thank you 🫂💜

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VersesAndBruises · 100+, F Best Comment

Please don’t apologize for sharing. This is heavy, devastating, and real. This is a free place to share, and I hope you know that you have people who care and are willing to listen and be with you as you try to work through this.

My heart absolutely breaks for you reading this. 💔 Watching someone you love suffer like that is a pain no one should ever have to carry. I wish I had the words to make it better, to take away the pain, but coming from someone who had to watch someone they love die, there are no words to make it better at all.

Even if he can’t speak much right now, I truly believe he feels your love — in your voice, your touch, and every moment you sit beside him. That tear says so much. And hearing “love you,” even whispered, is something to hold close forever.

You don’t have to walk through it alone. I’m sending you so much love, strength, and comfort right now, and peaceful vibes to your dad. May he rest as gently as possible, and may you feel surrounded by care during this unbearable time. 🤗

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@VersesAndBruises Thank you, I couldn't believe he was able to murmure Love you, because yesterday he didn't even wake up once while I was there six hours. It meant so much. And your true kindness does too. Thank you truly 🌹