I Have Taken Anabolic Steroids

I've been clean since July, but I remember why I started in the first place. I didn't like who I had become, but I like this less.

In the words of Brooks Hatlen;

I don't like it here. I'm tired of being afraid all the time. I've decided not to stay.

(And no, I'm not talking about suicide. I'm talking about using again)

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InOtterWords · F

I can't begin to preach to you about what to do and what not to do, not when I never listen to anyone.
I just know that we have a choice, my current thoughts are suicide or no suicide. And I'm current weighted more against one than the other but am fighting it. My resistance is low, my world is raging, yet I am still here.

I need to believe I can do this or I'll give up now, I need to believe others too can make that journey, or I'll give up now.
So maybe if you feel that urge, think of me, sitting next to you, also fighting the urge.
Let's just get through today first what do you think?

Brooksy · 41-45, M

I'm in! We'll get to tomorrow and see what it brings, huh? 😉

InOtterWords · F

@Brooksy: yes
Let's talk again tomorrow