I Have Taken Anabolic Steroids

I've been clean since July, but I remember why I started in the first place. I didn't like who I had become, but I like this less.

In the words of Brooks Hatlen;

I don't like it here. I'm tired of being afraid all the time. I've decided not to stay.

(And no, I'm not talking about suicide. I'm talking about using again)

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Serenitree · F

Oh, Brooksy. Is that why you were gone for a few weeks in the summertime? I hope you will stay strong. Avoid going back to using. We're here for you. I know it's not the same as being there for you, but it is the best I have to offer. My head and my heart are with you. ☺️💞

Dec. 17/16
11:01 am

Brooksy · 41-45, M

Thanks, Serenitree 🙂
I left for other reasons. I think I've already made my decision though. As of as it sounds, I miss being hollow.

Serenitree · F

@Brooksy: does this mean you want to use the steroids again?

Brooksy · 41-45, M

Yeah, but it won't be any time soon. There's a lot of prep work to be done.

Serenitree · F

@Brooksy: I won't pretend to understand. I don't. But I do hope that you will reconsider. I fear what I don't know. I don't know anything about steroids except what I've heard about others who've used them. Sending you hugs, and herhiddenface to kick your ass.

Dec. 17/16
11:28 am

Brooksy · 41-45, M

Thanks Serenitree 😊