Post something here you've wanted to share at SW...

I may not ever be married 😥

Im sorry you have ptsd. I understand how you feel. Online is one thing and feels safe but my husband was decent in that regard so maybe there are men who are . When we were divorcing for multiple reasons it was kind of a nightmare to date in person. I like you, do not trust easily. I reach out but usually sabotage relationships.

i think if you just tell them first thing that you have it it saves worry latter like get it out thats it's there you know? thats how i roll anyway about things

Dunedin Railway Station yesterday

I think I perhaps already share too much with SW and I should stop soon. 🤷🏾 I save the really juicy stuff for my therapist, thank goodness.

I’ll probably delete this but I feel like I am not capable of being loved or seen as beautiful anymore. I can’t stand my reelection in the mirror. I no longer feel comfortable in my skin. I’ve an amazing man in my life he’s perfect and yet I can’t understand why he wants to be with me and what he sees in me. I can’t allow myself to get close to him and let him in. I feel ugly and dirty after being raped and feel like there is this big warning on my forehead that says broken and ugly and dirty and to stay away.

I hate people and I hate the people that made me feel this way

I have one love who's unreachable. I share a lot on here. People just need to read.

I feel that my various disabilities make me undesirable and physically unattractive. I've also always been shy and not confident and don't ever feel comfortable approaching people. And it's not even that I might get shot down, I worry that I'm going to bother them or make them feel creeped out. It's a little easier online but there's so many scammers and catfish and otherwise dishonest people out there that it is hard to form connections.

I might have shared bits and pieces of that but not really ever spelled it out all together.