Sometimes I feel really pathetic

People take breaks here quite frequently...a month, two months, or more. I've never taken longer than a week break here. I feel sad ...and just QUite really SAD. I used to have a social life several years ago...I have nothing now..🙁( but on the flip side I am grateful for wonderful people here🪻💖)

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KingofBones1 · 46-50, M

Don't feel bad sweetheart I have no real social life never had one in this area my entire social life revolved around my business. So when I went to prison most of that died off now I kill a lot of time try and simply to rebuild move forward and progress. The main interaction I have is with people online and myself. But it is what it is

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@KingofBones1 Thanks appreciate that. There is a really awesome author (Byron Katie) I love and her philosophy is If you do not have someone or something in your life..then it is Meant to be..and it means essentially you do not need it at this time. But I will say I'd Like more social contact, but most people are very self serving. I feel they wouldn't have patience with someone with as much anxiety as me. I am trying to minimize anxiety though..I'm always working on it ...ty again 🪻

KingofBones1 · 46-50, M

@Coralmist you're definitely welcome and I understand that because even though I don't have as much nervous anxiety as I used to I definitely have severe trust issues from the b******* that I've seen and have gone through so it's going to take someone real and genuine to penetrate my wall and get my attention in the first place. A lot of people just aren't that nowadays and even when it comes to friendship people don't want to take the time. But that's cool until then I just do my own thing. I'm here though if you ever need to talk you seem like a really nice person and I don't mind trying to help if I can

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@KingofBones1 Exactly.. People are very egoic and are instant gratification oriented. Even friends..not just romantic wise. It's a lonely world because I think there's probably like 25% of truly kind or patient people out there. In my experience anyway. Sorry you also have walls up too. I appreciate your words King🌻

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Coralmist · 41-45, F

@KingofBones1 People have stepped on me because of my kindness..even a family member humiliated me once when I asked 'are you sure?' About taking something they were giving me. They said 'Stop saying that.' ..(Rudely). I felt horrible. So it is really kind of you to say to stay how I am. Thanks 🍁

KingofBones1 · 46-50, M

@Coralmist look at it this way sweetheart maybe that's God's way of showing you who does not deserve you and the kindness you hold in your heart. I know it can be painful and I'm sorry that you go through that but in the end those are the kinds of people you are better off without so maybe try looking at it this way instead of losing someone you're actually clearing the dust off your shelf to make room for something truly beautiful one day.