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@TurtleEclipseOfTheHeart 👀 I'm ringside 🍿

@DCarey I know but it is what it is and I've done everything possible to get myself out from the place I'm in, nothing works, I only ever succeeded in making things worse for myself by trying.

I never used to be so crap no matter the circumstances I could always get out and come back stronger but this time I have to accept defeat.

@AntisocialTroll How have you been defeated? Has something really bad or stressful happened to you?

@DCarey I'm an alkie, I was stable for years. I moved to a new area 5 years ago, within 3 weeks I got a new guy in the flat above me.

He started random banging from the very moment he got his keys, turns out he has NPD, OCPD, ASPD and SPD and he's a literal incel, he's a year younger than me and he's never had sex because he doesn't have what it takes, so he hates all women and this is just what he does everywhere he lives. 5 years on and I can no longer take this, bare in mind I live on a junkie/alkie estate anyway so he's been able to cultivate support by a combo of reporting others for benefit fraud and convincing them it was me and then buying whomever he's fucked over drink/drugs/whatever so they think he's suddenly wonderfully despite the fact it's him responsible for them being reported!

I've wagon dived tonight, not really because I wanted to drink but because I know I'm not likely to survive much longer and I'd rather die p!ssed than give the twunt the satisfaction he would get if I hang myself. I've done everything you are supposed to do to move, doesn't matter how many times I fill in feckin forms etc it gets me nowhere.

I've never been so ineffectual in my lifetime, I'ma kickarse kinda woman on the quiet but there is nothing left for me to do but to drink my way out.