2015 💔 it was the worst my mental health had ever been and I was in hospital , I nearly died from an suicide attempt and I had nobody. I had one friend but she didn’t understand me so we hardly hung out , I was horrible to her and now I’m trying to make it up to her. I got expelled from school and I was homeschooled, I had no escape and my dad abused me physically and mentally , I was into alcohol , I ran away , got into trouble with the police , I had an eating disorder that bad I didn’t eat i only drank , I tried to end my life over 10 times , I self harmed , I failed all my exams , I never got to go on holiday or out to do fun things , I slept in an damp bedroom I had to sleep In my coat it was that cold and damp , I can’t remember anything happy from that time expect for the fact I got free horse riding lessons and I used to volunteer most weekends at the stables , I loved that and that’s all I had going for me at the time. That saved my life.
