Crazy as it sounds, here i am

@BetweenKittensandRiots oh yes most definitely. I have been on the internet since it first came out and all. I myself have put myself in risky situations when I think back but lucky for me nothing ever happened. It's crazy to think of the risk and dangers now tho and people still tend to find themselves in these situations. I think that's what's more mind blowing. Maybe some people have the mind set of, it would never happen to me.
I find myself here as well to see if it can help my express myself. I'm not very good at it in person and feel like nobody who close to me likes to listen anyways. I figured finding people like me might help

@Cocokitty I think one of the most essential aspects to my character is my curiousity but I'm not entirley sure what you mean by Like you?

I Wonder what you mean by that. What are you like?

@BetweenKittensandRiots what I mean is the curiosity thing as well but I am also someone who suffers from minor depression, anxiety and anger issues so far that I have been told by my therapist. I am also a struggling alcoholic, I drink to run or hide from my emotions or stress. I also do it because I feel unheard all the time so drinking just nudes it or the feeling to want to speak on it and saves me from feeling frustrated when no one seems to care.

@Cocokitty the levels of apathy did for awhile bother me but from my angle on reality as a bullying victims the monsters are in the rear view mirror and while I remain haunted somewhat I am aware that as much as I fear everyone is very concerned about my every move no one cares anymore and rather than being upset about I do realize it's also libertating. No one is going to make fun of me for being into the wrong things- no one is going to target or police me for harassment because they practically aren't even aware I exist.

and while the hunger to be heard is there there's also the realization that in some ways being invisbile is an advantage.

I am filled with passion myself.

This was a passion project:


maybe it's a nerdy thing but I am quite so about it.

And you're correct- people often don't care.

and to make matters worse we continue to torment people right up until they do off themselves and then we tell ourselves no one could have foreseen instead of just seizing to act that way towards the next person who it suits societies fancy to torment.

@BetweenKittensandRiots @Cocokitty as dangerous as it is, I think countless people still do it because strangers are not, as a rule, as dangerous as shows like this paint them to be. These shows are the exceptions. Thousands of people meet in person every day that first established a connection online. Most of those meetings carry little actual danger (though one should still be exercising reasonable precaution).

As far as incident rates, it's probably more dangerous to meet a stranger in a bar. But older, normalized risks never get sensationalized the way newer risks do.

@ViciDraco I know right? society always fears the new while forgetting how scary the old was. I LIKE novelty, I am an EARLY ADOPTER by nature. I treasure my STATUS as an Early Adopter. I STRIVE to be AHEAD Of the curve.

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@ViciDraco oh I definitely get that. I guess I've always just been more aware. Like I said I have put myself in situations that could have went wrongly of course. I been to the bars but never went home with anyone. I never went alone to the bars, I always went with a group of people, stay with them and left with them. I've always met people online but this is for sure knowing for a fact they are real, video calls, background searches for crime history 🤷‍♀️ and talking with them for months. Now of course I was still st risk because it is the internet, people can be anyone they want of course. The ones that get me are the dumb ones who only seen 1 picture of the person and within 2 days go and tries to meet up with them. Or the girl who leaves the bar with 3 men.
Some people just make it suppppper easy.

@Cocokitty If you ever look into me I was charged once with battery about 10 years ago and the charges were dropped but I really need to explain myself.

I have difficulty remembering to take pills and was prescribed at the time Anti Anxiety medication in the form of Paxil and since no one bothered to remind me to take it I simply took it just long enough to develop a dependency on it and promptly stopped.

the natural result elevated my normal aggression levels to the point of absurdity and my mother was just in the wrong place at the wrong time and while I deeply regret what happened if I were the sort of person who likes violence and was a violent person i've lived with the victim had access for over a decade since the charge and have not ever since. I think my doctor was correct to blame the paxil.

she would have called the cops and had me thrown back in jail if I were a huge fan of violence. And i'm not.

men who are batters by nature don't just make a mistake one day and then radically change.

I study domestic violence pretty extensively as a Personal passion and yeah I know the cycle of abuse...

Those guys don't change.

@Cocokitty yep, and if not for one risk that same careless ignorance would lead them right into another

@BetweenKittensandRiots oh I understand. Most likely someone with one charge is not going to come off as dangerous but then again I also understand some people with 0 history can also be just as crazy as someone with multiple chargers. I just do it so I can't be like some of these dumb ass women when new husband they met online begins raping their children and then kills them and their on TV acting all shock and surprise when it comes up with he had sexual assault chargers in the past but she never knew 😒 I'm just saying some things are preventable. Not always and things do unfortunately happen. But I rather it be a completely surprise and shock to everyone and not a situation where obvious information about someone that most likely points them to being a pedo, a rapist and or murdered is literally at the finger tips but I was too ignorant by dick to even look it up or question the type of person someone is. Lol.

@Cocokitty just know that the guys who are that way will over the long run rack up dozens of charges whereas my history is just a dropped one that I freely admit I was responsible for was immensely out of character... pushed to the brink we're all capable of things that we'd find shocking.