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Same...I'm glad I got to meet you...honestly I have done the same in planning to end it...but that was years back and I was more selfish then...I know if I were to go it would break the hearts of people I love, the people, who are doing their best to keep me alive...for me I've been depressed for a long time but I've had ups an downs. honestly the only thing that keeps me going is my music, my bf, and my family. I just recently told my mom and I told my bf, that I have depression...for some reason they can't imagine me being depressed before I told them. I've had it for a long time and they can't see that. I can't explain why I feel this way...but all I know is I have to stick it out and try to at least have a positive attitude towards life because if not its going to be harder for me to get by. Its kind of hard to smile but I keep practicing, trying to make it more genuine rather than fake. but thank you for telling me this. your not alone..

Thank you for that! Thank you for reaching out even though you don't know me. I was planning on this being a throwaway account but I'm not sure now since I've got a friend. :) I've always been emotional and cried alot as a kid but I would say my depression really set in when I moved and became homeschooled when I was in 7th. I mean before that I was bullied but at least I had a few friends...when I moved I had nobody and had to start all over and I was happy because I could finally become the person that people liked. But during that time I was isolated...and my only friends were friends on the internet my parents didn't know of...and the internet ruined my mind. Any ways now that I think of it that means I've had depression going on almost 6 years...and that scares me so bad. I want to get out of this rut I've found myself in but I kind of want to stay...lets just say I've gotten out of a few ruts but have gotten into others as well. The things that bothered me before I don't even care about. Sorry for the wall of text...I've never cut before...but recently I've been trying to find other ways of self-harm that don't leave scars. I'm afraid my parents would see them. I just want to feel something because sometimes...I feel so numb. Thank you for listening and feel free to reach out to me when you want to talk :)

Haha no worries xD I tried scratching the night before last It seemed to do the trick...I've heard pinching and rapping you knuckles with a pencil works well too and I did those as well. I don't really feel like I want to but that I need to...i don't know why...honestly I won't be on here much because I'm extremely behind on schoolwork and summer is very soon so now its crunch time. I'm a really good procrastinator. Right now I should be finishing up what I haven't even started. Lol, I would say my sleeping schedule is the only thing that isn't broken! I do go to bed somewhat late sometimes writing and stuff but I can't really get to my phone or tablet at night. Thank you for understanding that I have been through alot most times I feel like a horrible person for feeling bad for myself. I mean I have what looks like from the outside a pretty decent life but inside I feel like its falling apart. Thanks for the virtual hugs I love them :3 *hugs you to death* :)

Ah, I'm super glad I got to meet you too! Making friends is always something I love to do.
*hugs*
Ah, you sound like you've been through a lot, My friend.
Please, I know that we barely know each other, but If you ever, EVER need to vent, talk, help, to be cheered up or someone to talk to, I'm here for you to come to. I promise. I really love helping people if I can. Because it makes me feel like I'm not alone!
I've also had depression for a while now, almost 5 years. I also have ups and down, but trying really hard to keep positive and push on. I've also only recently told my dad that I have depression, although he had a hint of some sorts when he caught me cutting my wrists(Whoops 2 years ago now). My friends, family, anime and music are seriously the only things I live for. I doubt I'd be alive with out them.
Thank you too, for telling me that.
Really makes me feel like I'm not alone :D

Ohh, I see.

Honestly, I'm also very new to this too. I only signed up for EP a few days before it's closing, and I found about this new project they were working on--

I'm honestly glad, it looks like a really friendly site to vent on, since on my other social media accounts, everyone's on edge and stress everywhere.

Okay! Just still be cautious that those things can cause scars. And scars are seriously the last thing you want. Every time I see the scars on my wrist, I always cringe and feel guilty.
And all right! I'll be on here almost daily for now, since I'm currently home schooled, and I'm going back to school next month. But if you can, remember to say hi if you're on! I'd love to talk to you more. Ahh I wish you the best of luck with school.
And you're welcome. I know how that feels. I probably have a great life in the eyes of others, but I feel like it's crashing down on the inside.
No problem! I don't particularly mind them since most of my internet friends practically cling on to me c':

I'm actually verrry new...like I just found out about this website because I was going to sign up to EP today and realized alot of posts saying people were leaving and coming here...so I didn't have an account on ep before this...

Haha Ik what you mean. Really most of my accounts have people I know irl on them. this is the only place that doesn't so I can post anonymously and really vent because I can't really vent to people I know irl

Oh yikes.
have another hug my friend *hugs*
You really sound like you've been going through a lot.
6 years of depression is a longg time.
And it's alright, chat as much as you want. I've got all the time in the world since my sleeping schedule is completely broken.
Oh, trying to find ways to selfharm with out leaving scars, huh? I honestly recommend you don't do it at all, but if you really REALLY want to, I guess you could just try scratching yourself? That sort of works, and it doesn't leave scars if you don't scratch too hard- Whoops, what stupid advice.
Well, I'm really REALLY glad I could of be of some sort of assistance :D

Yeah, I think that what's I mean anyway cx
Looks like it's development is going along smoothly, and we'll have the final site in a while!

Oh, it's very nice to meet you too :D

lol your fine, your french is very well put :P I honestly am thinking of deleting it but I'm afraid people will think I got grounded or something and that's why I quit xD

Ohh-

Haha, Yeah. Most of my social media are websites where you can be anonymous--

Ahh, venting to people in real life is really hard, isn't it? cx

Haha, I already know what my purpose is, well my current purpose.
It's to hold on and stay strong for all my friends and family.

True that Dx and reading peoples vents on facebook disgust me...like they have no shame and talk down everyone.

Well, I guess what I mean is that it's functioning ENOUGH that people come on and post stuff.

Ahh, it's amazing on how people can be so similar sometimes.

Yeah, I'm honestly the same.
I've been rather down in the dumps lately, and actually was looking to end my life a few days ago(I know, I'm probably one of the youngest here, but depression is everywhere) But my friends and dad are the only thing that I'm truly living on for. I dislike the world and life in general

Ohh, well you're welcome c':

I'm just wasting my time on the internet at midnight waiting for a website I use frequently to get out of it's ' Temporary problem page '.

Haha cx

Oh, I've thought that many times too, but it's really the only website where I can keep in touch with my in real life friends that are half way across the globe-

wow, I would say the same thing for me :) Really, I don't even want to be here but its the people that love me, that's who I live for...

Thanks :P I know, I really am afraid of getting scars. I'll try to be on but I won't be on too much but thanks for the reply, I love to talk :)

Hmm, I don't really know myself.

But my father always says he wants to make the best of my young life-

Ohh~ Nice!

I wish I had friends in proximity. But I travel the world a lot, so that's unlikely xD

Oh yuck, Facebook.

I'd NEVER vent of Facebook, people there can be such assholes/excuse my language/.

Ah, well, there are people on here posting stuff if that's what you mean. It's nice to mee'cha :D

I think. it is.. functional...? Not sure what you would call functional but it seems to be functioning.

Thats great :) maybe you will find your purpose somewhere along the way.

Aw thats awesome! May I ask why you travel so much?

that's nice :) all my friends are in my proximity