I am a New Member at Similar Worlds

Thank you for that! Thank you for reaching out even though you don't know me. I was planning on this being a throwaway account but I'm not sure now since I've got a friend. :) I've always been emotional and cried alot as a kid but I would say my depression really set in when I moved and became homeschooled when I was in 7th. I mean before that I was bullied but at least I had a few friends...when I moved I had nobody and had to start all over and I was happy because I could finally become the person that people liked. But during that time I was isolated...and my only friends were friends on the internet my parents didn't know of...and the internet ruined my mind. Any ways now that I think of it that means I've had depression going on almost 6 years...and that scares me so bad. I want to get out of this rut I've found myself in but I kind of want to stay...lets just say I've gotten out of a few ruts but have gotten into others as well. The things that bothered me before I don't even care about. Sorry for the wall of text...I've never cut before...but recently I've been trying to find other ways of self-harm that don't leave scars. I'm afraid my parents would see them. I just want to feel something because sometimes...I feel so numb. Thank you for listening and feel free to reach out to me when you want to talk :)