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Same...I'm glad I got to meet you...honestly I have done the same in planning to end it...but that was years back and I was more selfish then...I know if I were to go it would break the hearts of people I love, the people, who are doing their best to keep me alive...for me I've been depressed for a long time but I've had ups an downs. honestly the only thing that keeps me going is my music, my bf, and my family. I just recently told my mom and I told my bf, that I have depression...for some reason they can't imagine me being depressed before I told them. I've had it for a long time and they can't see that. I can't explain why I feel this way...but all I know is I have to stick it out and try to at least have a positive attitude towards life because if not its going to be harder for me to get by. Its kind of hard to smile but I keep practicing, trying to make it more genuine rather than fake. but thank you for telling me this. your not alone..