OMG. The wieght of everything just keeps hitting me in waves.
I have nothing to show from the last 15 years of my life. I have no friends because she would get jealous if i talk to someone else and i put her first every time. Iv damaged my family. Iv wasted so much time fighting in the wrong direction. She was never worth it and made me feel like i was more than i actually am so she could use me. NOW I DONT KNOW WHO I AM OR WHAT IM WORTH. OMG MY LIFE. WHAT DO I DO NOW! I HAVE TO RE LEARN HOW TO FUNCTION IN LIFE WITHOUT HER. like stockholm syndrome. I dont know how i can function now. I need sever therapy. Theres so much to basic life i have to learn that i never developed because i was with her! I let her break me.