Did I change or did people's view of me changed

I remember a time where people used to like me on here, they used to care, they used to wanna gwt to know me, the person that i am.... I was never the popular kid around, i was never in a click, but many used to pm me, comment on my posts, i had many people i called friends...

Now, its like im a ghost, and this ever since 2019, when I made my suicide attempt on mothers day and my depression got at it's worst. When I was at my worst and all i wanted to do was die...yet I see many people here post all the time about their pain, struggle and desire to end it all like mostly every day, yet I always see their friends be there for them still regardless how many time they post about their struggle for years on end

Ok I get that people dont like to be around negativity, but when we are dark, its hard to be positive.. my wonder is why me, why do people always leave, why do people stop caring, why do people stop wanting to learn about me... it must be me.. i think its me, it has to be me... i feel like a ghost, like people dont care anymore...unless i show a pic showing skin....then i get a little noticed before going back into ghost zone


I appologise for having a mental issue, im sorry I was trying to survive, I am sorry i annoyed you, Im sorry I made you block me, Im sorry I made you lose your caring ways towards me, im sorry i made you walk away..im sorry I am me... but Im even more sorry that you don't get to see that I am doing much better and that there is much brighter days in my life than dark ones..

I guess im just not the cool kids ppl here wanna hang out with....cause I aint cool no more🤷‍♀️🥺