He doesn’t want a relationship but leads me on.

I just wouldn't go on the trip. You're gonna be miserable the whole time.

That'll just hurt you more in the end.

You're wasting your time. If he has made it clear that he doesn't love you or want a relationship. Perhaps things have gotten physical and he's content with something casual. There is no going back.
Don't even suggest it, he will think you are weird for even suggesting it. (You're selling yourself short accepting pretend feelings)
Refrain from sexual activity or the trip if you know you cannot cope.

Good luck.

I know I’m pathetic. I just know I love him too much

at your age women are needy , love is an emotion and you kind of are afraid that you will not be happy without. Its hard to mature prematurely, maybe find yourself a guy + 50 :)

No. Leave . Stop pretending and wishing things were great. Skip the fantasy land, girl. Leave -find another who cares to make things great. And who cares ABOUT you.

I think being a willingful victim is bad for you. You are giving him more and more time and means to abuse you.

Oh, you poor bastard. A chick desperate for love might be one of the saddest things.

Tell him you want to pretend you're married for a few days

I think you're just making it worse.

Dump him

I'm sorry😞

You seem unable to feel joy for yourself or others. Is this a true statement?

Abuse the fuck out of his generosity and use up all his money, especially if he expects and you give him sex!

That's spastic. If he agrees he is equally as spastic

Who is he? What's the road trip for?

He does NOT deserve you!

Leave Him

Don't go, and cut contact with this person. You're hurting yourself and he's using you.

Dump him

Same 😣

Fool