raising myself through morals and judgements based off experiences of myself and others, having no one to speak with yet being the person they rely on without crediting. if i were to be described as an A.I. a problem solver and it would be because of my technical abilities, my logic, my endurance. I've described myself through various characters, ones with various personality like masks and all being the same person. I may not win, and that's not my problem.
@jshm2 You sound like one of my brothers. I was happy, content, and in my own way awesome. I let other people take that away from me. I mean other people took that away from me i didn’t let them.
having a heart that feels deeply, a mind that never stops thinking, and a smile that often hides a thousand untold stories. I try to bring happiness to others, even on the days when I’m fighting my own battles. I may be quiet at first, but once I feel connected, I have so much love and warmth to give. I’m not perfect, just a soul trying to stay kind in a world that isn’t always kind to me.
Good question. Well, I feel pretty sad most of the while and life can be tough. I'm a single mum to three adopted boys, my youngest was born with foetal alcohol syndrome and autism. He's quite hard to care for but he's also the light of my life. Watching him achieve even small goals, like when he learned to ride a trike, really lifts me up.
My husband died two years ago, it was totally unexpected and pretty traumatic. I replay the events of that day in my head a lot and I am balancing my kids mental health whilst also still grieving myself.
It doesn't sound very positive so far but actually I'm blessed in lots of ways. I'm financially stable and own my own home. My husband was a brilliant provider. I have flexibility in work options and I have great friends, an amazing church family and my immediate family are loving and supportive.
I feel like if you have blessings like I do then it's right to find opportunities to give back. I like to be kind and raise people up. I feel everything very deeply and I get affected if I know someone is hurting. It makes me feel happy if I can show compassion and care to others and I love spending time with kids and animals.
I am generally quite a bubbly person and I love socialising and especially cooking and feeding people. I love parties but it does burn me out of I do too much, then I like to retreat and recharge in nature. I see a lot of beauty in the world around me.
I also chat a lot, mostly about a lot of nonsense. My husband used to say I have a minimum number of words I have to say in a day and he was probably right. I did write a thesis as a response to this question even though it's highly unlikely that anyone will read this far. (If you did thanks 👍)
Oh I probably have ADHD and I really like emojis. These are some of my favourite.
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I'm going to put this on my profile too. It would be a shame for such a long response to go to waste 🤣
Hanging by a thread each day is what it's like honestly. I do go in nature as often as I can so that's a positive in my life. I love good cheesecake and I love a hot or iced coffee everyday. It's a little treat in a life and world where hope keeps dwindling. I avoid social interactions because it's a lot of energy constantly trying to appear competent or enough. Essentially it's very draining to be me Bec I have anxiety and don't believe I have a right to fulfill my needs or wants.
Praying daily, studying and learning, trying to share and learn other people's experiences while building up the world as best as possible in the wild west
To put things in context, I haven't had a normal life growing up . The adult me is a self-reliant, guarded, logical, outsider. Currently learning the ABCs of self-love and forgiveness. So, its way too difficult to be me!
To be like me is a very spiritual experience because I know this lifetime is nothing more than a hologram, an illusion of reality, a mere perception of the existence of time and space, both of which do not exist in the real world and subsequent to all this, my ego does not rule my offline world.