Ever have those days where it seems like the chemical make up of your brain noticeably changes
This has been one of those days for me. It's like you're functioning in a different reality than the real one, you're succeeding in living in your own desired constellation, nothing gets through to the person who's only millimeters from you, but at least their not acting goofy and singing/humming.
A film fave that's over 15 hours on the 3rd disc in a row, listening to classic fiction and non-fiction, browsing here and there online, drinking lots of coffee, chain smoking, and some chocolates.
In the zone with entertainment by death wish artistes, but none of this can convey this rarefied sensation.
That it would have been all too easy to SNAP and run amok, to not have done so is a miracle, and not a supernatural kind.
When mom was still around I couldn't imagine life with just dad, I always said i'd do away with myself before that, but here we are over 2 years of just me and him, it shouldn't be a surprising thing that there's many times where I could rip apart air.
A film fave that's over 15 hours on the 3rd disc in a row, listening to classic fiction and non-fiction, browsing here and there online, drinking lots of coffee, chain smoking, and some chocolates.
In the zone with entertainment by death wish artistes, but none of this can convey this rarefied sensation.
That it would have been all too easy to SNAP and run amok, to not have done so is a miracle, and not a supernatural kind.
When mom was still around I couldn't imagine life with just dad, I always said i'd do away with myself before that, but here we are over 2 years of just me and him, it shouldn't be a surprising thing that there's many times where I could rip apart air.
46-50, M
