Piecing Is A Complicated Person
I feel that I'm such a weird person. I got so many secrets it's annoying, I never say too much to anyone I know in offline life I might have forgotten how to do so.
The thing is I feel that I do that here as well. When I want to check on anyone I simply go through their posts and I find a few things but if it's the opposite I bet no one will ever know what goes through my head every day.
I'm not trying to make comparisons and I realize everyone is different but I'm annoyed at myself and I feel that I don't deserve the care and kindness I receive from my friends. One thing too that I'm annoyed at is expecting too much and getting upset later on. I don't even understand my own self any longer I been alone for more than half of my life and I mean physically alone it's sorta pathetic there's things that I seriously needed to do as a teenager but I never had the chance to do them because I didn't have anyone to do them with I never felt that I live my current age I'm 27 but I feel 100.
The thing is I feel that I do that here as well. When I want to check on anyone I simply go through their posts and I find a few things but if it's the opposite I bet no one will ever know what goes through my head every day.
I'm not trying to make comparisons and I realize everyone is different but I'm annoyed at myself and I feel that I don't deserve the care and kindness I receive from my friends. One thing too that I'm annoyed at is expecting too much and getting upset later on. I don't even understand my own self any longer I been alone for more than half of my life and I mean physically alone it's sorta pathetic there's things that I seriously needed to do as a teenager but I never had the chance to do them because I didn't have anyone to do them with I never felt that I live my current age I'm 27 but I feel 100.
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