How does one prepare themselves to die?

Thats funny I am in the process of doing so, I have cancer. I have been my family caregiver and cared for my maternal grandmother, uncle and my mom and dad die when they died. They all died at home, save mom. None of them died easy death. They all placed their trust in God and even though they seemed to be suffering they were calm and at peace. I think we have such a screwed up idea of religion because of greed and narcissism. Belief in Christ is about living life with a different mind set. Things do not matter more then people and in the big scheme of things a life lived to 60, 70 or even 80 is not a big deal if you compare it to eternity. Even though I know I am dying I still get mad, upset, think the wrong things and say the wrong things but I ask God to forgive me each day. I have confessed that I have sinned and am in need of a savior and I believe that Jesus died for my sins on a cross and rose again and went to heaven to prepare a place for me. So, all this rambling to say I guess I am preparing by asking others to forgive me for screwing up when i did and letting others know that this is not the end but maybe just the beginning. I however will not be riding a bull name fuemanchew (sp).