I am a 21-year-old woman, and I don’t know how to do makeup(i dont mean to be pick me girl)—maybe I can only use powder or cushion and lipstick, but I mean real makeup, the kind that truly looks like makeup.
I can’t dress up in a way that’s too feminine. Even though I really want to.
Actually, there are some factors behind all of this, but never mind.
I feel like I don’t deserve to feel beautiful or to do things like that. Even just wearing lipstick, sometimes I feel like it’s too much… If I already put on lipstick, I usually end up wiping it off, even though it’s not even that much. My friend sometimes says:
“Why do you look so pale?” And I reply, “No, I already put on lipstick.”
Sometimes i wanna be like them.. But inside me telling me 'I dont deserve it, everybody will judge you
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I prefer not applying makeup to doing it wrong and look cheap. I never learned how to do it properly because it's fun for a day and then it's just annoying to me. It's something that requires trial and error, takes time to gain skills and costs much more money than I've even been willing to pay for something that I don't even see much use of for myself and that I'll throw away barely used later. I have hooded eyes, so if I apply eyeshadows, I don't even see it. I never really liked how my face looks so it's always like putting all this stuff on and still I won't like it because I can't change my bone structure. Nowadays I don't apply makeup also because I don't like how it feels on face.
