The loss of companionship

Life is lonely. I need to do more things to keep myself busy. I need to stay busy because I'm alone truly alone. My one friend is far and soon they will be married which will make them even further from me. I got a few more people but the truth is they're always with their girlfriends or working.

I run a lot I practice karate too I'm thinking of taking up another martial art and taking up rock climbing but no matter what I do I am alone. I'm a old man 39 soon to be 40 it's too late for me to be in love or start a family.

I wish instead I could have a really close guy friend I could do things with but most men are married and most men are slaves to their wives.

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KingofBones1 · 46-50, M

You are not quite there yet. I am at that point. I am almost 50 years old it is not going to happen for me. And I understand what you mean about certain people being slave to their wives I lost a friendship a while back due to that same reason. This guy was a hunting companion and a close friend when he was single and living nearby after he married another woman from the one that he was dating in the neighborhood total change like night and day I only saw him one time and we went out somewhere to eat and then he got upset because I would not just pay for the bill I would not give him extra gas money for the ride home after that we never spoke again and from what I am hearing he is constantly working for her and her family on their Farm as well as holding down his job as a deputy. Lastly I don't have any friends not really that I physically hang out with on a regular basis anymore either after I went to prison once I came home everyone smiled in my face until I moved 20 miles away and suddenly most people want to act like I am irrelevant. Welcome to my world