I want to stop feeling jealous when my husband has a friend come over while I’m at work at night

I don’t have any of my own friends since moving 8 years ago to my husbands hometown and since having kids 2 years ago, I’ve been struggling with loneliness and depression and when I get a notification from my doorbell cam that someone is hanging out with him and leaving before I get home from working part time at night (7p-11p) makes me a little jealous that nobody ever comes to see me during the day when I’m home by myself all day long. Nobody comes by on the weekends either, which just get my mind spiraling like why aren’t I good enough to hang out with? Do I suck that much? It’s not my husbands fault for having a social life but it’s hard to try to make friends when you’re the “default parent” to 2 toddlers with no car during the day and no “mommy groups” around you to go to. We haven’t had a “date night” out of the house together alone in almost 8 months because we have no money to pay someone to watch our kids since his family is MIA as far as our kids are concerned. They gladly take and hangout with everyone else’s kids in the family but haven’t even bothered to ask how my babies are doing. So no friends, no family. I just want 👌🏼 this much of some sort of social life . When I have the chances to get out of the house by myself and go somewhere other than the grocery store, I have nowhere to go, nowhere I could hang out, no one I could hang out with…..so I’m just home all the time except for my little 4 hours of work each night.