the thought of spending the rest of your life alone

[c=7700B2][i]that's what i think sometimes about the situation i'm in; i have lived alone in a small flat for 18 years...i don't have a support network anymore nor any friends, i only have my elderly mum and dad and they live far away..

i sometimes think, that i'm in my mid 40s now and what if i never find a partner or make new friends, what if i have to spend the rest of my life alone and it really devastates me...i mean i am an reserved introverted person but did hope that i'd find a partner or a friend, but it hasn't happened yet...and i'm 46 now.[/i][/c]