So i decided to become vegan (again)

I am struggling with that for such a long time now but i think now i come closer to the time that i will make it. It's just isn't making any sense to the way i am and the way that i think, to eat meat. Seriously. I feel a lot calmer when i eat plant based. I am going back and forth for few years now. Like the smoking thing, i got rid earlier this year.. I want my actions and my beliefs to be aligned and to sleep consciously better...
But a reason that this is getting hard is none in my surrounding is vegan or even, values it. On the contrary... Anyways I came to realise, i wasn't very determined before. And that "i will just have meat once in a while" thing isn't working for me either. Because i am confusing my already confused family this way.