When I was a Kid I will imagine myself looking at myself from a third point of view. Supposedly it was a mental condition.

That's when it hit me I don't want to masturbate because it looks to animalistic and savage. That's when I fell In love with knight culture. It was until I was in school that people used to make fun of me why I didn't masturbate. It never felt good to me and alwasy behind my I will think if I saw my self strange.