What was your favorite gift

Here comes the emotional roller-coaster!!!!

My favorite Christmas gift was from my mom & grandma.

It was an SNES.

It was our last Christmas together.

I wish I could remember those days better, because that Christmas always confused me. We left early in the morning, and I'm not sure where my dad was that day (I do believe he dropped us off).

But that's one of my all-time favorite days to remember.

I got to play my SNES all day, eat delicious Christmas bon-bons (Pizza cheese-strings, those sugar-coated gummy fruit shapes, those Icee Squares, Marshmallow Santas, Terry's Chocolate Oranges... I can't even remember what we had for dinner). We listened to Sunshine on Leith on repeat all day.

I miss being in the room with them. Listening to their chatter.

That was the Christmas before my gram had her pacemaker installed.

The last Christmas where she drank. She was soon diagnosed with diabetes.

Until today, I didn't realise how many points of my life converged on that Christmas.

I think I'm only realising now, the trauma her passing caused me in highschool. I cried for months. I wished it was me, instead of her.

But yes... Christmas.

My mom and grandma made my first 12 Christmases magical. It was never the same after mom left. She always went that extra mile.