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I wish I had a family so I could die and my son wouldn’t have no one,

Since we have no one, I just live in this pain for him. It’s so frustrating. I love him so much, I would never leave him. I don’t know which would ruin his life more, me dying or me raising him alone never being enough.

I have tried EVERYTHING. I miss my Mom, she would of hugged me at least, even if she was still in the dementia ward, she knew who I was. But thankfully she doesn’t have to suffer anymore. She just left me with this mess. I couldn’t do that to my sweet boy.

Suffering for him is worth living for I guess.
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RebelFox · 36-40, F
@TinyViolins but which am I? I still feel like a pup and my parents already left me. It’s like I don’t exist anyway.
TinyViolins · 31-35, M
@RebelFox You are what you wish to define yourself as. Nobody can tell you how to feel or what to believe, though they'll certainly try. The only person who knows you is you.

The problem with defining ourselves by our relationships is that when those relationships end, we no longer know who we are or what we stand for. It becomes a struggle to find our identity in a world so callous to our needs.

We have to learn through pain what other people learned through love, as unfair and unbearable as it is. But from my point of view, the universe gave you that pain for a reason. It made you strong so that you can carry those who lack the strength. It gave you that pain so that you could recognize it in others. It's giving you wisdom to be a guide for the lost souls out there. You had to suffer so that others don't have to.

Imagine if you were one of those selfish parents that abandoned their children or left them to fend for themselves. That let themselves get lost to drugs or alcohol or sex while their children's needs were left unmet. Who were so preoccupied with themselves and their appearance, their children grew to expect neglect and stopped loving them.

It might not seem like it, but pain is temporary. How many things from 5 or 10 years ago still hurt as much as it did the day it happened?